Tuesday, April 28, 2009

The Innocents Abroad



Yet another long stretch has passed since I've written anything on this blog. I've started Mark Twain's The Innocents Abroad, and this is what he has to say:

"At certain periods it becomes the dearest ambition of a man to keep a faithful record of his performances in a book; and he dashes at this work with an enthusiasm that imposes on him the notion that keeping a journal is the veriest pastime in the world, and the pleasantest. But if he only lives twenty-one days, he will find out that only those rare natures that are made up of pluck, endurance, devotion to duty for duty's sake, and invincible determination may hope to venture upon so tremendous an enterprise as the keeping of a journal and not sustain a shameful defeat."

He continues, "...If you wish to inflict a heartless and malignant punishment upon a young person, pledge him to keep a journal a year."

So, having admitted that this "veriest pastime" has become a burdensome duty, perhaps I will let it go and continue to chronicle my adventures, woes, loves, and thoughts until I return home in July.

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Papa



I realized last week that this July 4th marks the 12th anniversary of my father's death, meaning that I am about to embark on a time in my life where I've spent more of it without him than with him (I was 12 when he died). I don't even know what to think about this, to be honest. Part of me feels a sense of relief, thinking that some of the intense pain and missing will start to feel better. I almost imagine it as plunging my body into a cold bath of water, how painful and shocking that is, but as time goes by, the longer I stay in, the more I get used to the feeling. The water never stops being cold. I just learn how to feel better in it.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Idus Martias

ACT I.

SCENE II. A public place.

Flourish. Enter CAESAR; ANTONY, for the course; CALPURNIA, PORTIA, DECIUS BRUTUS, CICERO, BRUTUS, CASSIUS, and CASCA; a great crowd following, among them a Soothsayer
CAESAR
Calpurnia!

CASCA
Peace, ho! Caesar speaks.

CAESAR
Calpurnia!

CALPURNIA
Here, my lord.

CAESAR
Stand you directly in Antonius' way,
When he doth run his course. Antonius!

ANTONY
Caesar, my lord?

CAESAR
Forget not, in your speed, Antonius,
To touch Calpurnia; for our elders say,
The barren, touched in this holy chase,
Shake off their sterile curse.

ANTONY
I shall remember:
When Caesar says 'do this,' it is perform'd.

CAESAR
Set on; and leave no ceremony out.

Flourish

Soothsayer
Caesar!

CAESAR
Ha! who calls?

CASCA
Bid every noise be still: peace yet again!

CAESAR
Who is it in the press that calls on me?
I hear a tongue, shriller than all the music,
Cry 'Caesar!' Speak; Caesar is turn'd to hear.

Soothsayer
Beware the ides of March.

CAESAR
What man is that?

BRUTUS
A soothsayer bids you beware the ides of March.

CAESAR
Set him before me; let me see his face.

CASSIUS
Fellow, come from the throng; look upon Caesar.

CAESAR
What say'st thou to me now? speak once again.

Soothsayer
Beware the ides of March.

CAESAR
He is a dreamer; let us leave him: pass.